the death of a loved one

You were a part of me and now, you're dead. You're still walking among the living... lurking in the shadows of my past, present and future. But you aren't you anymore. Not the same one I once knew.
Why did you have to leave?
I love you.
Please come back.
Burying the memories of you is forbidden.
I don't want to.
I pray you won't give me reasons to do so.
I await for your return.

The 5th day of June

AS my birthday looms closer, I started thinking of the things I have learnt in the short span of one year. The longer i thought of it, the more I realised how much I've changed.

What's more, being part of the media for the past 3 months has changed the way I look at things. How I look at small details. How everything becomes clearer. I see both the urgliest and the most beautiful side of humans. A curse and a blessing in disguise.

They say ignorance is bliss. I say it isn't. As much as ignorance helps in the time of desperation from fear of the truth, it shields you from the best things God has to offer.

There's always a silver lining behind a cloud. It just takes some time or more for that lining to appear. but when it does, well... it sure is beautiful :)

the need to rant

Don't say I didn't warn you but basically yes, this is a post designated for...well, ranting. I just started working for a media company not too long ago and I can honestly say that... I love it.

Stressful does not even begin to express how things are of late. I haven't really been sleeping or eating right. Sometimes it's my off day but I get agitated and restless, thinking I should be working today. I know... quite a downer eh?

However, the experience is worth it. I have never felt so alive and so in tune with society until I joined the company.

I get to meet different people everyday. Mingle and socialise. Most importantly, I get to broaden my horizons as I am fed with new information and knowledge everyday. What more can one ask for?


Oh yeah, money. I knew that taking this step would require me to take a salary cut. But yeah, other than the moolah issues, am good.

Oh I learnt something very valuable during assignments: take everything with a pinch of salt. Everything. 'Nuff said.

Anyway am off to enjoy my offday! Nothing beats not needing to go through the horrible jam on a Monday!

Bye!~

Feb 14 :Take time to love & be happy

Note: This may be a bit late but hey, it's a message we can all take heed anytime of the year.

February 14 is the day that some couples embrace, some singles loathe and some may thoroughly enjoy it by celebrating love with their family and friends. Before you get all smoochy or dreadful, there is a rather important ingredient to remember before showering your love to someone else first.

Although showing your love to others is essential, it is also necessary to remember to love yourself. Someone once said that "You cannot experience true love until you learn to first love yourself." It's pure logic. When you do not love yourself, how do you expect to be happy? Happiness does not start from the other half, it starts from you yourself. When one is happy and confident on oneself, he or she will experience complete love as the underlying foundation is already filled with love, surety and self-respect. The other half will be there to reinforce what already exist - not fill it up from scratch for you.

So, whether you're attached or single, take some time off to indulge yourself in... yourself! Do things that make you happy once in awhile - it could be doing an activity that you thoroughly enjoy, making someone laugh or just doing something nice for someone else (maybe it's time for that dinner date you promised your parents some months back). Kicking in the happy hormone will make you feel good about yourself which translates to happier people around you.

Whether you're a man or woman who is attached or single, make February 14 a day that you look forward to and not dread :)

a new beginning beckons

A new beginning is sitting behind a door opened so readily for me to enter. Yet, I was hesitating. It shouldn't have been so hard since I was looking for this particular door for awhile now. It made me realise that after taking many turns, whether right or wrong, you start to wonder if the next turn IS the right one.

What I am about to embark in is going to be something beyond my capabilities - or so I thought- that I am seriously afraid of what is to come. What if it doesn't work out? What if I fail? Being a perfectionist, failure was never option. It was something deemed unacceptable. Ever.

However, challenge has always been my resolution. No matter how tough things get, I always try to be brave through the storm and finish first. It's funny how one person can have two very contradicting characters in her - being afraid of going into something totally out of this world and always wanting to seek challenges.

I wished I had answers to many questions I have in my brain. But I know only God has the answers and whether He plans on revealing them, is up to Him. After all the steep and high mountains I have climbed and always finished first, I believe my future is in safe hands. The fear of failure and perfection is a thing of the past. It is His calling to me that matters the most. I know that He has my interest in mind and knows what is best for me. I leave my life in Your hands, Lord. May You mould it, shape it and let it shine that many people will know what a great God you are. Amen.

reminiscence: trinkets of affection

A spring-clean through my folders and folders of photos led to the unfolding of some memories; there were some good and bad, painful but riveting and lastly, evidences of what I did to affirm my affections.

drooling for pancakes

Let me say this loud and clear: I am not merely a pancake addict; I am a Pancake House addict! It is safe to say that the only pancakes I'll ever eat are from Pancake House. I am totally hooked on every bit of that smashing blueberry pancake. Fluffy on the outside with delightful surprises in the inside, these yummy pancakes are worth every sen. Everyone who have tried it (even those who don't fancy pancakes in general, mind you) love them. I'll post up more pictures of the place and the food (of course!) soon. For the moment, enjoy... or should I say Bon Appétit!




Here's Susan. She was frustrated with the fact that I stopped her from gorging down her food to snap some photos of our meals before they disappeared in no time! :P

Anyway, I got to go catch some beauty sleep. It's late. And I have to look all dolled up at a conference that I have to attend tomorrow. GREAT.

Good night, peeps.

Congrats my dear friend

I know I'm late in posting this up, BC. This post is specially dedicated to you and your wife-to-be aka fiance, Mellisa.

For all the years I've known you, you have been there for me whenever I needed a shoulder to cry on, sharing great laughs on very random (and rather nonsensical) things and just being there for me as a good friend. You've never disappointed me.

I am so ecstatic that you and Melissa are finally tying the knot after dating for some time. I think you guys make a fantastic couple and I hope God will bless the both you. May His Grace shine upon you guys :)



Awwww... They were in tears when BC proposed on one knee in front of the whole congregation near Christmas. Ain't that sweet? :)

I love happy endings! Don't you? :)