a new beginning beckons

A new beginning is sitting behind a door opened so readily for me to enter. Yet, I was hesitating. It shouldn't have been so hard since I was looking for this particular door for awhile now. It made me realise that after taking many turns, whether right or wrong, you start to wonder if the next turn IS the right one.

What I am about to embark in is going to be something beyond my capabilities - or so I thought- that I am seriously afraid of what is to come. What if it doesn't work out? What if I fail? Being a perfectionist, failure was never option. It was something deemed unacceptable. Ever.

However, challenge has always been my resolution. No matter how tough things get, I always try to be brave through the storm and finish first. It's funny how one person can have two very contradicting characters in her - being afraid of going into something totally out of this world and always wanting to seek challenges.

I wished I had answers to many questions I have in my brain. But I know only God has the answers and whether He plans on revealing them, is up to Him. After all the steep and high mountains I have climbed and always finished first, I believe my future is in safe hands. The fear of failure and perfection is a thing of the past. It is His calling to me that matters the most. I know that He has my interest in mind and knows what is best for me. I leave my life in Your hands, Lord. May You mould it, shape it and let it shine that many people will know what a great God you are. Amen.