yearning for...

i've always been the type who would've preferred to be alone,
what more with the number of fair-weathered people around me,
never did i imagine i would meet someone who i could not live without,
we've been inseparable eversince we first met,
distance doesn't make the heart grow fonder,
just more yearning and heartache,
you and i share the same footprints,
the same aches and joy,
so you can imagine how heartbreaking it is that you are at an unreachable distance now,
please come back soon,
as men (including the 'fairer' sex) cannot live by bread alone.

the death of a loved one

You were a part of me and now, you're dead. You're still walking among the living... lurking in the shadows of my past, present and future. But you aren't you anymore. Not the same one I once knew.
Why did you have to leave?
I love you.
Please come back.
Burying the memories of you is forbidden.
I don't want to.
I pray you won't give me reasons to do so.
I await for your return.

The 5th day of June

AS my birthday looms closer, I started thinking of the things I have learnt in the short span of one year. The longer i thought of it, the more I realised how much I've changed.

What's more, being part of the media for the past 3 months has changed the way I look at things. How I look at small details. How everything becomes clearer. I see both the urgliest and the most beautiful side of humans. A curse and a blessing in disguise.

They say ignorance is bliss. I say it isn't. As much as ignorance helps in the time of desperation from fear of the truth, it shields you from the best things God has to offer.

There's always a silver lining behind a cloud. It just takes some time or more for that lining to appear. but when it does, well... it sure is beautiful :)

the need to rant

Don't say I didn't warn you but basically yes, this is a post designated for...well, ranting. I just started working for a media company not too long ago and I can honestly say that... I love it.

Stressful does not even begin to express how things are of late. I haven't really been sleeping or eating right. Sometimes it's my off day but I get agitated and restless, thinking I should be working today. I know... quite a downer eh?

However, the experience is worth it. I have never felt so alive and so in tune with society until I joined the company.

I get to meet different people everyday. Mingle and socialise. Most importantly, I get to broaden my horizons as I am fed with new information and knowledge everyday. What more can one ask for?


Oh yeah, money. I knew that taking this step would require me to take a salary cut. But yeah, other than the moolah issues, am good.

Oh I learnt something very valuable during assignments: take everything with a pinch of salt. Everything. 'Nuff said.

Anyway am off to enjoy my offday! Nothing beats not needing to go through the horrible jam on a Monday!

Bye!~

Feb 14 :Take time to love & be happy

Note: This may be a bit late but hey, it's a message we can all take heed anytime of the year.

February 14 is the day that some couples embrace, some singles loathe and some may thoroughly enjoy it by celebrating love with their family and friends. Before you get all smoochy or dreadful, there is a rather important ingredient to remember before showering your love to someone else first.

Although showing your love to others is essential, it is also necessary to remember to love yourself. Someone once said that "You cannot experience true love until you learn to first love yourself." It's pure logic. When you do not love yourself, how do you expect to be happy? Happiness does not start from the other half, it starts from you yourself. When one is happy and confident on oneself, he or she will experience complete love as the underlying foundation is already filled with love, surety and self-respect. The other half will be there to reinforce what already exist - not fill it up from scratch for you.

So, whether you're attached or single, take some time off to indulge yourself in... yourself! Do things that make you happy once in awhile - it could be doing an activity that you thoroughly enjoy, making someone laugh or just doing something nice for someone else (maybe it's time for that dinner date you promised your parents some months back). Kicking in the happy hormone will make you feel good about yourself which translates to happier people around you.

Whether you're a man or woman who is attached or single, make February 14 a day that you look forward to and not dread :)

a new beginning beckons

A new beginning is sitting behind a door opened so readily for me to enter. Yet, I was hesitating. It shouldn't have been so hard since I was looking for this particular door for awhile now. It made me realise that after taking many turns, whether right or wrong, you start to wonder if the next turn IS the right one.

What I am about to embark in is going to be something beyond my capabilities - or so I thought- that I am seriously afraid of what is to come. What if it doesn't work out? What if I fail? Being a perfectionist, failure was never option. It was something deemed unacceptable. Ever.

However, challenge has always been my resolution. No matter how tough things get, I always try to be brave through the storm and finish first. It's funny how one person can have two very contradicting characters in her - being afraid of going into something totally out of this world and always wanting to seek challenges.

I wished I had answers to many questions I have in my brain. But I know only God has the answers and whether He plans on revealing them, is up to Him. After all the steep and high mountains I have climbed and always finished first, I believe my future is in safe hands. The fear of failure and perfection is a thing of the past. It is His calling to me that matters the most. I know that He has my interest in mind and knows what is best for me. I leave my life in Your hands, Lord. May You mould it, shape it and let it shine that many people will know what a great God you are. Amen.

reminiscence: trinkets of affection

A spring-clean through my folders and folders of photos led to the unfolding of some memories; there were some good and bad, painful but riveting and lastly, evidences of what I did to affirm my affections.

drooling for pancakes

Let me say this loud and clear: I am not merely a pancake addict; I am a Pancake House addict! It is safe to say that the only pancakes I'll ever eat are from Pancake House. I am totally hooked on every bit of that smashing blueberry pancake. Fluffy on the outside with delightful surprises in the inside, these yummy pancakes are worth every sen. Everyone who have tried it (even those who don't fancy pancakes in general, mind you) love them. I'll post up more pictures of the place and the food (of course!) soon. For the moment, enjoy... or should I say Bon Appétit!




Here's Susan. She was frustrated with the fact that I stopped her from gorging down her food to snap some photos of our meals before they disappeared in no time! :P

Anyway, I got to go catch some beauty sleep. It's late. And I have to look all dolled up at a conference that I have to attend tomorrow. GREAT.

Good night, peeps.

Congrats my dear friend

I know I'm late in posting this up, BC. This post is specially dedicated to you and your wife-to-be aka fiance, Mellisa.

For all the years I've known you, you have been there for me whenever I needed a shoulder to cry on, sharing great laughs on very random (and rather nonsensical) things and just being there for me as a good friend. You've never disappointed me.

I am so ecstatic that you and Melissa are finally tying the knot after dating for some time. I think you guys make a fantastic couple and I hope God will bless the both you. May His Grace shine upon you guys :)



Awwww... They were in tears when BC proposed on one knee in front of the whole congregation near Christmas. Ain't that sweet? :)

I love happy endings! Don't you? :)

the 5th last day of the year

I can honestly say today has been a bittersweet day. Firstly, sleeping at 5am on Boxing Day was no fun at all, especially since I had to wake up early to bake with my brother. But some conversations were necessary that earned brownie points (hah!) worthy enough that I willingly stayed up to.

Woke up at 11am. Rushed to the clinic to get 2 jabs on both arms. One for flu and the other for Hep B. The former was much-needed since I kept getting bitten by the flu bugs. The latter was a booster as I did have some antibodies left for that but needed a boost immediately. My left arm is still sore. I wonder if the jab there was for the flu or Hep A. Got one more jab left; for Hep A. I reserved that for this coming Monday or Tuesday. There's just so much trauma one can take on one's body. I even suffered a nauseous run in the evening thanks to the jabs :(

The baking parade started before I arrived home. Yup, leave it to me to crash it! Hehe... We made two types of cookies! One is oats with cinnamon and the other is my fav. Listen up OK? BIG SOFT GINGER COOKIES! yummmmm.... I leave you with pictures of us cooking (or rather, BAKING) up a storm at the dining area.











yummyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy oat cinnamon biscuits :)

Ho ho ho....

Today has been a rather progressive and fulfilling day. In the early morning of today, the eve of Christmas Eve, I had my appraisal done with my boss. I would say it was rather fruitful and I hope something good will come out from the whole discussion. I'm glad she kept an open mind although I would've preferred that the personal comment was skipped altogether.

After that, I had to rushed through my work since we have important people coming tomorrow. Yes, I'm spending Christmas Eve in the office. How sad is that? :(

We had a training for new products. Pretty excited about these new stuff. I am rather intrigued with the whole history of the product and the resurrection of it the past few years. I hope we could market it real well here. Because... that would mean more moolah :) The conductor of the training flew in all the way from the States. So, that was pretty entertaining. I took a lot of pictures today. And i mean A LOT. The shutters were probably weary at the end of it. Poor thing.

I'm bummed about spending Christmas Eve within the four walls of the office. Four walls of home would definitely brighten up the day. We'll see.

I leave you with pictures of some deco I saw at Kepong. I think they're pretty cool eventhough very simple compared to over-spending and trying-too-hard decorations in our major malls.



Toodles!

xoxo,

Mei

It's a holi-holi-day!

Well... soon anyway. But the festive season is definitely getting to me. Me and my bro made a pack to bake this Christmas. It's definitely going to be jolly ho ho ho for our family and friends! We promise to make it real nice and edible :) We'll get started once my flu subside. Wouldn't want some 'extra' flavour in there, right?

Oh, guess what was in the mail today? :)


Thanks, Murni :) You're the best! Am loving the complimentary hairclip & in coral too (mmm... my fav!). Loving what you see here? Mimpi Murni blog is the No. 1 accessories blogshop that I'll stalk (that is when my moolah permits me to, of course ;) )

Check out her vintage-y accessories all handmade with love by Murni herself. You can also catch her at bazaars and events to meet the lady herself in the flesh and get 20% off her collections! (pssstt... You can subscribe to her updates so you'll never ever have to miss ANY updates! Believe me, you'll regret if you don't.) Did I also mention her designs are usually one-of-a-kind? It's quite rare that she repeats designs since most of the pieces are dated as far back as in the 1950s! More reasons for you to stalk her site :D

Back on today's events, I was out the whole day. Had my hair trimmed and straightened the front :) Will show you pics of them later!

I gotta go! Gonna indulge and stuff myself with lots of sushi today :D

Bye!

xoxo,

Mei

FReaking Out!

I know about writer's getting mental blocks but I never knew it would be this bad. I've run out of ideas. Seriously.

It's been happening for a few weeks now and it's not pretty I tell you. I have so many things to rush. What is a woman to do??

I've been writing. Blindly. I don't get visions on how I want my article to look like anymore. The BIG IDEA. NADA. Why?? Some say it's due to stress and pressure. Freaking myself out now. Some say maybe I lost my confidence in writing. Maybe it's both? Arghhh...

Even my boss (who's a writer himself btw) realised that. He said I have become like other writers. I don't question much anymore. I don't get the big picture. I just write. It's true. But I don't know how to get out of it. Think I need to invest in a good book to read to clear my mind.

Or... The best? Holiday! But it's only my 4th month working at the company. Then again, what I've been doing can equal to a year's worth of work. I don't know. Maybe I DID lose my confidence and curiousity. Think my creativity's dying too.

IF anyone out there have any piece of (functional and constructive of course) advice, please do tell me.

Anyway, need to sleep.


Mei'z Mood Tonight: Missing MR C.

Tagged :S

I got tagged by Bernard Cheah. Ish. I don't usually do tags but since it's Christmas, I thought why not.

Rules:
Each player of this game writes about his/her Christmas wishes. People who get tagged need to visit your blog to find out more, and then write about the same topic in their blogs. Player must state the rules clearly, and pass this on by tagging the same number of people. To tag someone, leave a comment in his/her blog and tell them that they have been tagged. Number of blogger to tag: up to you.

So, the following is my personal Christmas wish list in not a particular order (random stuff la):

1) Mum and some of the people very close to me to be super happy
2)An unusual Marcasite cross pendant I saw at a mall. Super nice. Super expensive. RM50 ><
3) A new sunglasses
4) A car
5) A driving license (I doubt anyone can fulfill that except God, me and the guys at JPJ)
6) A trip to Colmar at Bukit Tinggi :)
7) To lose more weight but more importantly, to be healthy.
8) To graduate with a first class honours. Hehe.

With that done, I'm am tagging:-

1) Deborah
2) Hui Chuan
3) Darshini
4) Ashley
5) Lydia Wan

Ok. It's 1 hour before Christmas. hehe. Yay :D

Sense of humour much needed

I haven't been blogging for...God knows how long.

I feel the past few weeks have been stressful for a lot of us, JRians. Class politics becoming more apparent. We blame it on anger built-ups over the years and crappy assignments given to us on our FINAL semester. (Hey earth to J.S. and the uni staffs, it's only a 7 weeks semester!! Gives us a break already!)

Moving along...

Today, classes were real dead. Lecturer was asking us to answer her questions and all of us look with 'O' on our mouths. Nevertheless, we tried our best to answer the questions on a step-by-step basis. Here's one of them.

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Question 1:

Rewrite the following print article to a broadcast script.

The state of the X (country) economy looks good with the GDP growth maintaining a robust rate. Nevertheless, the problems in the country’s economy is inflation, which is understated at a CPI (Consumer Price Index) of 2.50.

The country is also no longer in an attractive position in the foreign investors’ radar and this will take a toll on the economy in the longer term.

1) Create a headline

Answer 1: X's economy still healthy.
Answer 2: X's economy still sunny.
Answer 3: X's economy still healthy but inflated. o_O



2) Rewrite the article to make it sound better on the ears.

The country is also no longer in an attractive position in the foreign investors’ radar and this will take a toll on the economy in the longer term.

Answer 1: X is becoming less attractive to foreign investors and this will affect the economy in the long term.
Answer2: X needs a bikini and a sexy pose to gain more foreign attention. ><"

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Yup we tried our best despite us being so stoned and brain-dead for intelligent questions. Let's just say the lecturer was not impress. XD

Think this could serve as a gentle(?) reminder to take time to unwind and breathe in and out (wuuuu-saaaaaa...). This especially goes out to my classmates.

Now, to get back to my thesis or to be more accurate (we future journalists suppose to be anyway), final year project.

Take care peeps!

Ta~

Pretty cool stuff!

I found this really quirky website with loads of different quizzes! Here's some...

You Should Be a Joke Writer

You're totally hilarious, and you can find the humor in any situation. Whether you're spouting off zingers, comebacks, or jokes about life... You usually can keep a crowd laughing, and you have plenty of material. You have the makings of a great comedian - or comedic writer.

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

It's kind of different from the direction I was going for :P I was going more towards beauty and fashion. Hahaha...Well, I'm keeping my options open anyway :) Hehe...I also did another quiz on beauty. This was what I got :D

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

You guys can click on the links to try it out yourself! There are loads of different quizzes there so no worries about finding something of your interest :)

They even have one on "What kind of BRA are you?" o_O

And to prove I ain't kidding, here's mine :P

You Are a Sleek Black Bra!

Subtle, sophisticated, and classy. You're not the first woman a man notices in the room... But you're the one he remembers a week later. You need a guy who will make a lasting impression on you too!

What Kind of Bra Are You?

HAve fun quizzing! :)

ROFL

Photos of the Day

Alex and I bumped into these pics today while looking for some pics! Though they were pretty funny. Enjoy :)



Cat




Copter

Just in case . . .

Since yesterday after posting up about Brian AKA Brain and his art work, I've been getting queries ask to who this Brain is. LOL. Pretty curious bunch aren't ya! :D

Well, he's one of my bestie whom I met in college :) My mum calls him a cutie pie !!!

ROFL!He's too humble to admit it :O

Anyway, I have pics of him with me but I'm not sure how would he feel if I posted up a picture of him,himself and HIM :P But I managed to get one cool one which I think is sufficient enough for you guys to get an idea on how he looks like. Not to mention, what he does :S

( I.hate.the.fact.that.there's.no.emoticons.here).

(Anyhooosss) HEre it is!

Ok the indication is bad...I know xD LOL...But I admit that I ain't pro with Photoshop and suddenly lost all skills I had. Well if I had any anyway o_O

But the dude at the bottom left end is BRIAN! :D

Cool stuff huh? That's him in the process editing his work :)

FYI, Brain too has a blog on blogspot. So, if you want to know more about Brain, please visit http://absolutezeon.blogspot.com/ (I'm giving you free publicity Brain ;P)

And I just realised he has posted up lots of pics in his blog. So, if what I posted up there wasn't good enough (which I can guess isn't :P), then check out his blog.

Anyway, adios amigo! Have to do my assignments now! HAve two due next week... And I was so hoping I would be able to snuggle up in my bed and read the Secret River (TEE HEE) on this rainy and windy night :D

PS: I'll post up more stuff this week. Well, I hope anyway :) Hehe... Have loads to show you. But want to keep you guys in anticipation anyway :P

Ta!

A post dedicated to Brain's exceptional work of art =)

Happy Birthday to me! :D Weeee...! Well that was like a month ago? Hahaha sorry peeps! Haven't been able to update! My most sincere apology :)

Anyway, my 22nd Birthday this year was nothing grand but was exceptional thanks to one of my bestie :D Cutie pie Brain Brain! :D

Oh and also Abbas for taking me out go makan during my break on my birthday itself :D Thanks abbys!! :)

My mum cooked my fav food too on my b'day! Was yummy! Thanks mum :) Gosh, I'm so blessed :)

Oh back to the present that Brain gave me :) I could guess it was a book inside eventhough Brain denied it *wink* *wink* The best part of the present was surprisingly not the present itself but the cover! Ok, the present itself was nice and thoughtful but the cover was even better :D Hehe...OH, no 2nd guess on what was inside....

A book o_O

Haha...Brain :P You can't beat my intelligent mind :D muahahahaha! xD

Source: http://www.fantasticfiction.co.uk/g/kate-grenville/secret-river.htm


It's entitled the Secret River by Kate Grenville. It looks quite interesting although I have to admit I haven't read it yet (sorry Brain!) due to hectic schedules and procrastination! LOL.

I will read it during the holidays ! I hope I'll get the chance to dig in!

For those of you who are curious what this lil' book contains, you can check out http://www.curledup.com/secretri.htm



Back to the cover, I have some pics here (courtesy of Brain) to show you. I think a picture is worth a thousand words rather than me babbling here, trying to explain to you...Ahhhh...The blissfulness of modern technology =)

This is the front cover

And...The back cover!

As you can see, he made a cover resembling a book cover ! How awesome is that! Not to mention, the amount of butterflies imprinted on it is enough to satisfy my fetish for them. Well, for that moment anyway :P I give you props Brain for the fab cover! ME love!! =) =)

I hope you guys can click on the pictures to get a bigger view because it didn't seemed work on my previous posts. I wonder why. LOL! Gosh. I suck at this HTML stuff :P

HELP me fix this prob Brain or Abbys!! :D LOL!

Ok, that's a wrap! So Brain, I've kept my word! I wrote a post solely dedicated to your work! :D Hehehehehe.... :)

Ta!

A class dinner that ended with a surprising twist :)

Classes have resumed and the new semester kicks off! Stress and tension seemed to be just a corner away and I could just smell it. Then the CrazyJrians (that's our class FYI) decided that we should kick start our semester with a great dinner to fill our starving stomachs before we are totally drenched by the tight deadlines for assignments, presentations, classes and of course final exams.

The group decided to go to Marche at The Curve for their buffet dinner. Then, I remembered my bro telling me he saw an article in The Star mentioning that their buffet dinner would only start in June. My bro even e-mailed the manager enquiring about it and that it's true. The gang decided to give it a shot and it proved true unfortunately.

So, we went to 1 Utama and feast at Bakerzin! Wee...~! And so the feasting journey begins. To begin with, the place looked real fancy and cozy. It looked real luxurious somehow to extend that some of us were hessitant to enter :P Probably due to the setting of the place. Bakerzin's known for their yummy-licious desserts. So, I was wondering how their main meals would fare.

(Pic courtesy of 1 Utama)

Anyway, enough of promoting Bakerzin to my fellow readers :P Let's get to the FOOD!


Our class decided to get the dinner set which is about RM28 nett. It's really worth it because apparently the desert that comes with it costs about RM16 ++ ! I know it's crazy but these people really know what their food is worth because it was super yum yum ! xD


For the dinner set, most of us ordered the lamb stew with a chocolate cake, some with cheesecake. Our stomachs were really singing songs and Lily's food arrived first. It was fried rice. We were just watching her eat her food because we were just so darn hungry!! Anyway, our lamb stew arrived the latest but it was worth the wait! It was tender and real nice. Unfortunately, we didn't manage to take a pic of it! We were too hungry that we gobbled it all down once it arrived at our table! :P But here's the fried rice Lily had :)

And the rice and curry that some had :)

We were basically camwhoring throughout the whole dinner.Even while we were eating ! :D Hey, they're for memories! :D




Chin Han and Yen2 looking oh-so-cute :D







Lily: "What u want??"





Chin Han and Lily (still doing the "What u want??! look)





Chin Han: "DO this...Cheeseeeeeeeeeee....!"

Been (looking blankly) : "Huh?"



Then we waited in anticipation for our desserts! The cheesecakes arrived first and looked like ice cream! So heavenly! :) The last bit of it is the best because there are crumbs at the bottom! That dessert just ended with a bang!






The cheesecake that looks like ice cream!

BC trying to have a bite without using his arms

Chin Han having a bite at his yum yum cheesecake.He ain't planning to share it with ya~!




Our chocolate cake still didn't arrive yet.So Grace asked the waiter about it. He said they'll arrive in 10-15 mins!!! Want to know why? Because it's freshly baked! o_O


Grace: "Where's my freshly-baked-chocolate cake??!!!"



And seriously, we expected something as huge as the cheesecake. So when the choco cake arrived, we were a tad disappointed at the portion. Nevertheless, it proved that size doesn't matter because it was yummier than the cheesecake!! This lil' fart was oozing with chocolate inside it when we were scooping it! YUM!



Size does not matter!

Lily trying to show how small it is. It is really THAT SMALL!





Ahhhh....We were one bunch of full and satisfied people I tell ya! :D Then, some of us thought great things must come to an end. We should have known better since we're the CrazyJrians!!



Suddenly, a cake pops out from the kitchen heading towards us and then a burst of "Happy Birthday" song filled the air. Some of us (yea that includes muah) were like just clapping and singing along until the cake was placed at our table! When we saw the names written on the cake, we realised that the cake was meant for me, BC ,Been and Yen2! I realised what a ditz I was for not realising it earlier from the whispers and sudden disappearances of our classmates during the dinner! :P

Happy Birthday Been, Yen2, BC and ME!!~






Anyway, I take this opportunity to say Thank You to all my fellow classmates who took the iniative to get us the cake! It was great! :D




And FYI, it was a chocolate cake! Lol...So we were really full at the end of it !! Oh how spoilt we were that day :P









To end the whole thing, we continued our camwhoring sessions! :D






Remember this pose? Hint: Dragonball

This is a super fantastic shot of Yen2 and Chiew Mei. WE GLOW!!

Chiew Mei: "Mine's puffier than urs"
Soo Yee: "Ya meh??"








Models of the year! Lily, Chun la u! :D










Nic: Muahahahaaha!!! (looking Evil)
BC: *ouch*







Ok everybody. Look cool! Ok, stoned works too :P


The incredible 3! whoosh!!

SMILE!! All happy and satisfied after a hearty meal!

Pics courtesy of : Soo Yee and Yen Yen :D



PS: Thanks BC for making the effort to come despite of your fractured arm and that you were feeling unwell. You are one cool dude! I'm inspired by you :) Chin up k! God will always be there for you eventhough things may seem not going your way. Seriously, me speaking from experience ( remember I twisted my ankle real bad in 1st year?).Use this time to pray and put your faith in Him. He will sustained you and make you stronger than ever before ! :)